Came 6.30pm earlier, I was like totally zonked....
Though I was physically at my desk, mentally and emotionally I was emptied... We called it screen saver or hibernation mode in the dept....
I packed my bag, and left about 7pm.... I thought to myself, maybe a short stroll at Cold Storage may help to wake me up.... I think I need to eat, I need food, I need energy !!....
After a short stroll, I walked the usual route, out of Valley Point, towards my 'Budget Terminal' carpark, a short 10mins walk away....
While walking, my mind was thinking hard...What to eat?... Where to eat?.. Where to go after that?... Go home?.. Go shopping?... Go clubbing?... But nothing came through, I was in a state of 'blankness '....
But the time I reached the carpark, it was as though someone just flick a switch in me ...
"Why did I park my car ah?....."
"....???????"
"...SHit !!?!?.... where the F^%&* is my car?!!....."
For a couple of seconds, I was stunned !!!.... A little panicky .....
Then it all came back.....
My car was parked at my office basement since morning.... SHIT !!
I laughed at myself silly....
From there, I walked all the way back to Valley Point ..... like a 'tot' once more...wondering aloud how much will the parking fees will be....
My IU beeped $11 when I finally drove out....
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I wondered if this is the reason why I'm so shag since the weekend....
Mentally, I was looking forward to my Live On Board dive this weekend....
My first full swing dive this year....
It was meticulously planned and coordinated...
I was very excited about it....
But.... a recent global pandemic and a possible in-house contamination, I had to make the hard decision.... to call off the dive...
It was such a disappointment.... (maybe an understatement to say the least...)
It was a trip that took a couple of months to plan...
I could have push through and go ahead for the dive this weekend, but I cannot live with the guilt of infecting others IF I am infected...
The shitty fact was, I won't know until at least 4 days later or so... In fact, the symptoms may not even present itself in full glory now !!!.... It was agonizing...
If I waited for 4 days or so, it would be too late to inform the dive operator and risk having to pay a penalty for a last minute no-show... I was not ready to throw $450 away for a delay reaction...
So last Fri, I had to make the tough decision to pull myself and my dive buddy off the list, 7 days before the dive....
My buddy won't dive without me. If I go, she goes. If I don't, neither would she....
She too had made all the arrangements for the dive this weekend....
I suppose since last Fri, slowly but surely, the difficult decision I had made, kind of eats into me....
I wonder when can I find another window period for a dive anytime soon....

